Boy what a scare….

Look if you don’t have diabetes think yourself so very lucky….

Sometimes it can be so very hard on a person sometimes you wish you never had it. For me i had it since day one of my life so that being said that is now 42 years long….

Last night Alex called the ambulance here because I had a major insulin reaction, I mean unconscious like, it wasn’t a good scene, He tried to get me awake. He even slapped me he said i didn’t feel it though, He was scared and yeah i can understand that too. anyhow….

He tried in vain to get me to take some sugar in but to no avail, So he called 911 and they came in 3 minutes here. He said when he slapped me all I did was kind of open my eyes and then they rolled back so with that yep he was scared out of his wits. I would of been scared shitless too if it were me….

When the paramedics came they took my blood pressure and it was up 225 over 120 can you imagine frick man and my blood sugar was only .40 it should be 5.0 or over so that meant i hardly had sugar in my blood at all and when they pricked my little finger blood came gushing out of it meaning nothing to bind it ….

frick man….

I am o.k today and I know that i have to cut way down on my insulin so that is what i did today. after the paramedics left they did want me to go to hospital because of my high blood pressure. but once they checked it again it went down to 180 over 95 so they said that was a good inprovement but please call your doctor tomorrow to see him and yep i agreed to do just that….

AFter it was over I cried for an hour and made appologies to Alex and my little doggy Rudy they were both scared but so very loving. I am so very glad I have Alex in my life so very glad….

Is this summer or was i asleep and woke up to winter.

Boy summer is strange this year don’t ya think….

Is it just me or when there is a breeze per say have you not found that it is chilly like an arctic wind to it or something…

I have not been up too much other then helping Alex on some Jobs hehehe I giggle cause he pampers and spoils me so much and at the same time protects me to no end hehehe and it isn’t bad but yep Monique can do things and not get hurt hehehe for instance he uses of course those blades for cutting carpet and trimming that kind of thing well it took him a few months to finally let me use it hehehe and I didn’t even get hurt imagine that hehehe I love him so much

I got to glue too some carpet giggles again and got high from the fumes hehehe I couldn’t stop laughing and had to go outside for loads of air hehehehe hehehehe I loved to be with him he’s my gentle giant and when i’m in his arms i feel very safe from the world….

We went to the lake yesterday to get away from the intense heat we have here in the bowl they call it cause we live in a valley so yep it gets roasting hot here. So yep i got me a nasty lobster burn on my shoulders and back and of course my famous hives to boot…

so today i will be a vampire hehehe and stay mostly inside so as to not burn worse then i already am. Next weekend we are going camping and should be really nice. We are puppysitting our friends doggy on the weekend as they are going to a wedding and asked if we’d babysit Toby

Yep this would be Toby here above he is one years old so basically he is a year older then Rudy as Toby was born Jan 27 and Rudy was born Jan 28 of this year so yep hehehe if that isn’t a funny coincidence eh

hehehe one of our holiday pictures when we were up at manning park in June boy seems like yesterday we went and here it has already been a month man o man time flies eh…

Love is all you really need…

Shock shock eh here I am after a tad of absence so to speak
There is no real change other then being extremely busy helping Alex with his work.
I am an apprentice hehehe so i go and help him and he loves it when i go with him as do I
My little family i call it has indeed made me very happy and I have no complaints how could I when I have someone that loves me wholely and accepts me fully quirks and all hehehe
Now I know what love is boy who would of known it is just that nice….
I never worry sometimes though and yes i admit it that i have to fight with my past issues and alll the mental abuse I had when I was married to the bully is what i call him.
Now i have a relationship that is so total opposite and yep i get scared and Alex just tells me simply that stuff happens and why on earth would i yell at you or get mad at you…….
that is the way my handsome guy is and yes I love him through and through

Well my mom has moved back to Vancouver and thanks to Alex he helped her move back there thank heavens for that I say cause of course her brothers were not to be found any where of course lmao on that one, you know all the stuff she has done for them since they were kids you’d think they’d jump at the chance to help her but NOOOOOOOOOOO that didn’t happen….

I miss her dearly though and I know where she is but it doesn’t make it easier, I have Alex and my little Rudy who is getting so big now hehehhe he weighed in at 18 pounds the other day hehehe so I will not be surprised if he gets to be 25 pounds lol….

You see my picture on my profile I am not hiding anymore with anyone I figure let them see my picture an to see just how happy I am hehehe yep I definately am

Well i gotta run gots to vacuum and decide what for dinner and then go and help Alex out this evening so loads to do before then ….

chu…..

Holy crumbs eh….

Wow it has definitely been a coons age to say the least eh….

I am happy as a clam and everything is good. It feels strange though to feel good and have a man that is truly in love with me he tells me all the time and i love him equally as well hehehe he treats me with honor love and respect and hehehe spoils me and keeps me very happy. Now what else could a person ask for….

My little baby Rudy turned 4 months old yesterday hehehehehe he is a little Shih Tzu/Lahsa Apso cross and let me tell ya everyone that meets my little baby falls in love with him hehehe I will one day have to put some photo’s in of him. but right now i still have no computer access unless I am at my friends which i am right now. As she dr0pped me off at her house while she does her little house cleaning job…

then around noonish we go and pick up our little babys from the groomers hehehe so we shall see how my little guy comes out hehehe it should prove interesting to say the least …

On Wednesday we go to manning park for a mini holiday up near where my friend cathy lives it is her birthday on Thursday hehehe so i am currently trying my best to make a present for her and get a cute picture of the 3 of us at her request boy so much as happened i just don’t know what to talk about or say and it’s all good …

I guess i can say this I am truly happy ….

now i know what love is and who knew it would happen to me hehehe boy i am glad we choose to move here to port alberni although mom is moving back to Vancouver at the end of june and it makes me sad that she is moving but i know that is where she belongs. She will move in with my brother til she finds the right apartment to move into in Vancouver…

well i guess i outta get cracking I have loads to do before we go on our little holiday and oh yeah did i mention i got my learners licence going hehehe no i am not a beginner by any means i have  had my licence for 18 years but the old marriage made me let my licence go and alas now i have to go back to beginning cause our licence bureau does things different now it’s o.k lessons learnt eh and i got a lecture from the lady’s at the drivers licence office hehehe they told me to never let my independence go again hehehe let me tell ya i never will again i go for my driving test on aug 1st lol i haven’t forgotten either so i should pass with flying color i do have to follow there rules hehehe just until i get the licence then i will feel much better and once i get my licence Alex will give me his car to drive he told me that the other evening that way he said i won’t be stuck any where ….

Although he never lets me stuck as he tells me to phone and yep he does come and get me no matter what as he says he’s only 8 mins away from me at any time …

Yep I do truly love Alex…

Yep….

Hi ya everyone ….

I’m still happy as ever actually happier every single day i didn’t know that was even possible but it truly is…

We had to change some plans his truck broke down yesterday as we were leaving for the day. So he had to get it towed and repair and cost him a good 1500.00 dollars for a fuel pump geesh cars are expensive. but alas he needs that van to get his jobs done :)….

he was really sad and said i have bad news that scared me and he said we can’t stay at my brothers for seven days now. I have to get back to work on monday to work that bill off. hehehe i hugged him tightly and said don’t be sad i’m just happy we are together that what matters to me not some little trip hehehe :). so for now he is pretty busy and that makes me happy cause he will accomplish all his goals he needs to accomplish

to tell ya the truth i’m relieved we are not staying there for 7 days it’s nerve wracking enough to see his family and hope to god they like me or even love me as much as Alex does i’m so scared it isn’t even funny. He’s boss told me yesterday evening that i’m the best thing that has happened to him i said you know he’s the best thing that has happened to me :D.

On sunday we went to Qualicum beach and wow was it ever beautiful we had a gorgeous day i tell ya

*sighs here …..

mmmmm what a gorgeous day :0

I wanted to almost stay there forever with him hehehe we had a really wonderful walk not a care in the world oh yeah……

we went home and stopped for ice cream at whiskey creek they have really good yummy ice cream i had my favorite licorice hehehehe it looked like i had black lipstick on and he had cheery supreme was good. After that we made our way to the hot tub where we just relaxed and enjoyed being together. I’d say sunday was a good day that is for sure….

so then we went home i made a simple dinner and just relaxed he wished i had all my stuff there now but it will take a tad of time as i can only carry so much. when i do move all it there he will have to take a few hours off to get all my stuff over there. I will let ya see our little nest now

hehehe this is our little pink stove i think it is the 1950’s edition what do you think cause i’m not sure lol it is push button and i’m learning how to use it hehehe

this would be the little wall mounted stove hehehe of course in pink lol i am still not sure when pink was in i think the 50’s lmao

this would be our dining room slash living room hehehe really tiny eh i love it though it’s perfect for us too little love birds

this would be the little hallway to our bedroom hehehe and the door knob you see is a really tiny room lol almost like a broom closet lol not sure what we are gonna do with that lol for now it has a  lot of his stuff in there as he has only just moved in the last few weeks

Our cute little bathroom hehehe also in the famous pink lol and geesh i never liked the pink but i don’t know maybe with age it’s growing on me hehehe and talk about quirks to a home eh…

to get the toilet to fill with water sometimes you have to turn the sink tap on to get it to fill the toilet with water hehehe. 

and here you see the full kitchen lol it has a few quirks too and i giggle every time i have to deal with them like the fan for smoke and stuff well to turn it on you have to switch the light on and then switch again and it goes. to turn it off  you have to turn the light off and then turn again and it will turn off hehehe.

yeah i’m having fun i’m loving every minute of everyday i have with him I know it can only get way better from here ……

yeah……

hehehehe I am so happy it is almost sinful but do i give a darn nope not me…

every day is a new day every day i thank the creator for this love what a wonderful gift

when he is at work he calls me and tells me he misses me hehehe even though we saw each other only hours before …

I will be slowly moving into our little nest :)  everyone here is really happy for us too, his boss told me as much the other day when he came to our little house hehehe his boss winked at me and said i’m glad you have made alex very happy, he said he deserves that with all that he’s been through, I told him you know i have gone through much myself and my friends and family say the same thing too

I pretty much stay over there so that is why you don’t see me here as he does not own a computer, he already cleared a spot for my computer hehehe when i finally have all my stuff there :) 

It sure is wonderful to wake up so very happy every day and have knowledge that Alexander Pavlatos truly does love me we truly are a  match, he told me today that he will be thanking my mom hehehe for getting me to call him

Boy it sure is amazing how one week things are up in the air and the next week your hit by cupids arrow hehehe hehehe

hehehe Hi guys ….

I would like you to meet Alex ….

he makes me melt when i’m in his arms and when he kisses me oh holy moly I am melted butter hehehe

He told me this morning that he wanted to kiss me on the first day he met me when he was installing carpet in our apartment hehehe he said i had to wait 5 months to kiss you hehehe

can you believe it

my mom was right when she said i know he likes you and she said that when we first moved here and he was installing carpet giggles again…

*Loads to tell….

And where to start is the question I guess I can start with my trip to Vancouver and then work from there.

My uncle and I did catch the 830am ferry which was excellent i love that time for the ferry cause you don’t get into Vancouver too early. Well on the ferry as we were 10 mins out of the terminal the captain made an announcement their are whales on the starboard side so hehehe what does every body do they run to the port side lol that is left in case  you wanted to know hehehe and my brain had to think….

Wait a moment i thought they are running on the port side and well my uncle and I were already on the starboard side so i looked out and low and behold there was a young killer whale out about 500 feet. and I said oh wow there they are and hehehe everyone ran to our side of the ship giggles here it looked like a cartoon you know where everyone runs and all of a sudden the ship moves to it’s side hehehe :D.

So then we looked out again an saw the pod of killer whales back about 500 feet of the baby killer whale. My uncle said that they were probably teaching the baby to hunt and it was leading the pod now how cool was that. I have never seen the killer whales like that on the ferry some of my friends had talked about seeing them. 

So after that the ferry docked and we made our way into coquitlam where we met my friends cathy and cindi at ikea for breaky lol it is a good breaky and it costs only 1.00 for it. We didn’t have the breaky my uncle and I as we ate on the ferry lol. So we had a coffee talked for a bit with everyone and then made our way to our cars with package in hand i had to pick up from my friend. We didn’t even stay an hour and made our way back to the ferry and caught the 12:30pm ferry.

So that was one quick quick trip…

Well Bob and I are no more lol we never were anyhow who was I kidding thing is I pushed him into making a decision on it. And he said well we are friends i’m not attracted physically to you…

Geesh he could of said that months ago and it’s why i pushed him hard cause well i was getting tired of not knowing whether i’m friend or girlfriend material. I’m happy about it i did get sad of course but heck life moves on right it’s why i pushed him i don’t have time for that anymore i don’t have patience i’m not 20 anymore lol i’m a wonderful beautiful woman that deserves someone that will pay attention to me ….

WEll then hehehe I don’t remember if yo remember me talking about the carpet man back in october well hehehe his name is Alex and yeah sigh hehehe he and I have gotten together and he is also a gentleman being ever so careful of me hehehe respecting me and all that good stuff yeah. It’s funny how life can change in an instant eh Alex gave me my first kiss the other evening and I tell ya it sent shivers up and down my spine dam man that has never happened to me before.

anyhow yesterday valentine’s day hehehe was the best valentines day for me ever and i truly mean that. YOu see i invited Alex for dinner yesterday as i made a roast, mashed potatoes, some carrots and cabbage and mmmm mmm some gravy too all whole made of course :)  Well he came by at 6pm and brought us some cherry cheese cake and me a box of chocolate in a heart shape you know something giggles here I have never gotten a box of chocolates much less celebrated valentine’s day with me hehehe.

So i continued cooking my dinner and keeping an eye on it and Alex hung out in the kitchen with me stealing kisses from me hehehe oh yeah i let him hehehe yeppers he is a good kisser i tell ya mmmm mmmm Well dinner was made and we all sat down to dinner I had my mom, uncle, and Alex all there enjoying the dinner i had made after dinner we convened into the smoke room hehehe so mom and uncle had a smoke and Alex and I were sitting there enjoying company an then mom and uncle left the smoke room which is my bedroom and yeah…

Alex kissed me and brushed his hands through my hair and oh sighs here it felt good to be cared for. It was hard kissing in the chair i was sittin in and he was sitting in so we layed on my bed hehehe and kissed more he said Monique i really like you alot and he asked me to go with him to his brothers on march to saturna island and spend the weekend with him and his family that is nerve wracking though hehehe I am thinking of going too i think it would do me a world of good. Oh yes and his boss wants to meet me too I laughed when Alex and I went for a walk and he said that too me I said oh boy the pressure is on now hehehehe he said only if  you want monique i never make anyone do anything they don’t want to…

He told me too that he wants to spoil me I know this I really am not used to it but you know I think i like it, it just makes me smile to think of it and how one minute you can be lonely and the next minute you can be happy and someone cares for you, how great is that…

I’m truly excited and he also said to me Monique i’m not going any where and to me that is wonderful to hear cause well i’m not used to hearing that either, does happy dance

Well today is walk day around the track i’m doing that every other day in hopes that i will loose more weight and get that blood pressure way down and hopefully i will be-able to get off all that medication i’m on to make it go down…

Gone to Vancouver….

yeah i’m going to Vancouver with my Uncle Joe today so we will be leaving probably around 630am i am hoping.

Boy what a tough week and no more either i’m gonna do the power of suggestion i don’t know if any of you have heard about “the secret” it’s in a movie dvd format wow it is a valuable thing to have right now and i guess i’m passing it on to you now…

So what it is about is you create what happens and comes to you by power of suggestion in simple gist and yeah i know it is true. So be positive ask for abundance don’t be afraid to ask cause it is out there for you nothing is too big nor too small to ask for .

I am excited and yeah i’m working on me every day now so big changes for me is happening and yep that is a good thing.

there is an online site http://www.themastersofthesecret.com  site where you can take a short class on it and learn from it i know i will in the next couple of days oh yeah baby i am…

so for today i’m going to vancouver gonna have an excellent trip come home in a good mood and yep be greatful for my life and all my experiences i‘ve had

so for today smile and be greatful for all you have….

phew wipes brow….

boy am I relieved oh man am i relieved went to gyno yesterday and yep the marble is benign isn’t benign a lovely word yesiree i think it is hehehe

the doc said it was a strange lump that would collect fluid in it ummm he said the name and it’s a  honkin huge name but the gist is that yeah a strange lump that collects fluid lol but yes i’m relieved and geesh i wonder why it hurt to sit down even now….

well it’s  cause i have 4 stitches down there lol he thought he put two or three but he checked it to see how it was healing and he said oh o.k i put 4 there lol and they are the dissolving ones too so that is good.

 so that is looking good i just gotta bide my time and let myself heal and next on the list is still my extreme high blood pressure i need to get down and hopefully with a tad of time i will get that down too….